So I told God...

The other day, I stayed awake wondering if my needs and wants could meet in the middle
Desires and aspirations that seem unattainable
Write the vision, make it plain, make your confessions, live in these words according to His will and "it" will be

For some reason, I seem to be living life out the pages of "Happily NEVER after"
I have days when I feel contentment will do the trick
And then there are the days when I drown in despair and depression
My inadequacies laugh me in the face

I have these regrets
A million of them
Sometimes I blame myself
Other times, I feel I've earned a right to the never coming good life

Yet, I make it to the Socials
A smile planted on my face
Outfit fresh out the bags
I never looked this good
IG goes wild, Twitter aids the trend with glee
I'm in my feelings, this high should last a couple days

Like a boomerang, they come around
"DA PA DA!" Can a girl have a break already?

Give me peace for the raging moments
Give me an answer for the nagging questions
Give me patience for the ticking clock in my head
Teach me understanding in a language that isn't so foreign
Let me see the beauty in waiting
And for the sour moments, may I feel your grace like a hand guiding me through each crooked path